Tension and Release

I would like to share that for me my best orgasms are when I engage in special fantasies in my mind and in certain actions of my body. My advanced sexuality as developed over 30 yrs of masturbating everyday sometimes I must admit several times a day ! for thirty + years and with lovers.
The special fantasies have to be somewhat taboo as that is what is thrilling, I wouldn't dream of actually doing most of them, but it's that fantasy that is so exciting. I try to set up a do/don't do tension in my mind where I say to myself I'll do such and such (like sex my neighbor, wear depends and go in them, go without panties in a short dress, sex my relatives and friends, play with another very young girl, have a real party orgy, make my husband go down on me and tie me up and make me suck another man, sex the whole swim team etc). Then I build the fantasy tension by thinking about it and letting myself get obsessive about the idea and then when I think about it after a few days of this I get wet! When I get really excited the next time I force myself to pretend I'm actually going to do it, and I dress up and start the release process of masturbating intensely!!! Then when I get close, I stop and try to forget it, then after a little while I'll bring up the fantasy and then force myself to do it!! I'll get so wet that I finally cannot stop myself and absolutely must do the fantasy in my mind while using my vibrators and fingers to pleasure myself until I explode in a mind shattering and full body shuddering, screaming orgasm. I usually have a full bladder of water (no yellow) and spray all over the tub!!! The brain is the best sex organ!! but teasing my fantasy lovers leads to this fantastic release - the more tension the better the release, the more taboo the more exciting. Happy cumming !!